I started the day with Yoga with my roommate at a swanky Indian gym at one of the malls near our house. Today I knew marked the end of a long distance relationship and I thought it be best to start it by stretching and meditation. After Yoga I launched into an 8 hours conversation with my long distance partner which was wrought with nausea, anger, and laughter. I had many questions and many things I wanted to say, so it took my Saturday. Mixed feelings about the whole thing still lay around me but I know that right now I need to be alone as I carve out my new life. As a friend of mine who has worked abroad and has had many long distance relationships said recently said, "when long distance relationships fall apart it is a disappointment to put it mildly and you find yourself asking again, 'why did I put myself through this, [again].'" I'm fully aware that these long distance relationships are doomed for disappointment but it is easy to play the fool when you are scared of being alone.
After dinner at a Lebanese/Japanese restaurant - in Nairobi they take fusion to strip mall level - I went out with a few girlfriends and we ended up crashing a UN staffer's party in the posh neighborhood of Gigeri (spelling not correct). UN staffers are allotted ridiculous housing allowances as are US Embassy staff and they tend to live near their fortresses in Gigeri. The staffer was from Spain and was playing hits from the 80s which made me happy. Mr. Wendall was blasting when we arrived.
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